love like burning;

hellobirmingham @ 2005-05-31T18:30:00

2005-05-31T22:38:58Z

so yesterday elaina and i went to whitby to get our passports,
my picture got rejected because it was too light, so todayi went and had to get them to take my picture three more tmes to get it right. damn sears.

today is tuesday, i happen to like tuesdays a lot.

went on a field trip today, totally forgot about it this morning, oops...
got called down in class, "the bus is waiting for her" over the PA.
i'm glad the class thought it was so funny, haha.
sheesh, if i ever start working at a yearbook factory, shoot me in the face.
the sad thing is, the leader of the people there had a degree in archaeology.
i hope it's not an omen.

the rest of the day was ok, had two tests, did mildly better than mediocre on each.
i think i'm going to make a new friends only thinger.

prom was super excellent, i ended up loving my dress after all.
everyone was right, it did all come together.
i was really happy, and everyone looked so good, i couldn't have asked for a better formal.
except for the party.
ohhhh my.
but there will be other parties.

it's raining right now!! i love that sound.

my mom is making modigliani soup. mmm.

i'm wearing a self tanner that ISN'T ORANGE, everybody!!

i made a shirt last night, kinda, took my tube top and added a stringer so it's one of those halters that meet in the middle of the shirt, and added a black beaded flower. wore it today, i'm proud of it.

ugh. i'm not going to be able to hang out with russell all week because he has essays to write. le sigh. oh well, i look forward to the weekend ever more, because we'll also be able to hang out on sunday.

my parents rented the final season of buffy.. it's about effing time, i want them all to finish with buffy. they're obsessed. it's kinda scary. anyways.

i'm in a good mood, i'm feeling kinda happy.

like my new layout?

hellobirmingham @ 2005-04-18T17:31:00

2005-04-18T21:32:41Z

You scored as Drama nerd.

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Drama nerd

63%

Punk/Rebel

50%

Loner

44%

Prep/Jock/Cheerleader

38%

Goth

38%

Ghetto gangsta

31%

Stoner

31%

Geek

25%

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i'm going to do a shitload of homework tonight,
and once my fucking camera wants to fucking work
i'll upload and update you about my life,
via pictures and text.

hellobirmingham @ 2005-04-17T10:14:00

2005-04-17T14:15:10Z

add&comment.

hellobirmingham @ 2005-04-17T10:04:00

2005-04-17T14:09:46Z

thanks to assholes;
my journal is now friends only.

sandalwood.

2005-04-14T19:35:21Z

she can't tell me that all of the love songs have been written,
'cause she's never been in love with you before.

your skin smells lovely like sandalwood.
your hair falls soft like animals.
i'm tryin' to keep cool, but everyone likes you.

i want to kiss the back of your neck,
the top of your spine where your hair hits,
and gnaw on your fingertips and fall asleep,
i'll talk you to sleep.

but i'll be the one, i will have chosen.

i'm tryin' to keep cool, but everyone here likes you
i'm not the only one.

your skin smells lovely like sandalwood.
your hair falls soft like animals,
and nothing else matters to me.

she can't tell me that all of the love songs have been written,
'cause she's never been in love with you before.

your hand,
so hot,
burns a hole in
my hand.
i wanted to show you

hellobirmingham @ 2005-04-13T15:43:00

2005-04-13T19:43:50Z

Take me down, 6 underground,
The ground beneath your feet,
Laid out low, nothing to go
Nowhere a way to meet
I’ve got a head full of drought,
Down here, so faroff losing out
Round here,

Overground, watch this space,
I’m open to falling from grace

Calm me down, bring it round
Too way high off your street
I can see like nothing else
In me you’re better than I wannabe
Don’t think ’cos I understand,
I care, don’t think ’cos I’m talking we’re friends,

Overground, watch this space,
I’m open to falling from grace

Talk me down, safe and sound
Too strung up to sleep
Wear me out, scream and shout
Swear my time’s never cheap
I fake my life like I’ve lived
Too much, I take whatever you’re given
Not enough,

Overground, watch this space,
I’m open to falling from grace

hellobirmingham @ 2005-04-11T16:46:00

2005-04-11T20:46:26Z

she went down to the river
she wanted nothing in return
so we gave her nothing
watch out for that
smog
cover
it'll swallow you whole
millions of flies
fall all around
we met the wind
the wake up
so she danced slowly
for me
underneath the
oak tree
she wanted nothing in return
i gave her nothing in return
baptised in leaves
we went down to the river
to meet the cold

hellobirmingham @ 2005-04-11T15:28:00

2005-04-11T19:30:38Z

got my hair cut
it doesnt look a think like the picture
krista modelled her prom dress
pretty pretty
went to russells
walked there from kristas
long walk
he said i looked cute
and i pouted because i dont like the bangs
but i love him
rode his bike home
had school today
blah blah blah
russell got chinese
whooo
going tanning tommorrow with krista and sabrina
bye

hellobirmingham @ 2005-04-10T11:06:00

2005-04-10T15:09:43Z

So, the girls went shopping for dresses yesterday,
and they all have theirs,
which is super, i'm glad they found stuff they liked,
but now i'm all sad because i totally missed out on a girlie prom dress day...
and it's not going to be as fun going shopping with krista
because she already has her dress, you know?
it'll just be me getting the dress and i don't know, i think it'll be weird;
but, yeah.
but i know it's going to be fun, i mean, how could it not, it's krista! but still. you know what i mean, it just won't be that same.
so i'm kind of sad right now.
i was really looking forward to going with everyone...
that's about it.
i'm just sad.

hellobirmingham @ 2005-04-10T10:11:00

2005-04-10T14:12:14Z

So, I'm getting my hair cut today.

And, who else wants a "The Pope Is My Homeboy" shirt?

it a nut's hell.

2005-04-08T21:01:58Z

tonight i'm going to russell's for dinner;

tommorrow i'm serving hors d'eouvres to old people;

sunday i'm getting my hair cut like and maybe dye it darker.

hellobirmingham @ 2005-04-07T20:55:00

2005-04-08T00:56:39Z

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Sixth Level of Hell - The City of Dis!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Moderate
Level 2 (Lustful)	Moderate
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Very High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very High
Level 7 (Violent)	High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	High

Take the Dante's Inferno Test

Oh, come on now, let's not be dramatic.

I'm not THAT bad.

hellobirmingham @ 2005-04-07T16:10:00

2005-04-07T20:15:18Z

so, me and the rest of the monkeys and the witch all auditioned for this showplace thinger at pcvs. i saw cydney there, it was nice.
none of us really wanted to do it.
the results are in, and we made in.
we're going to rehearse and stuff.
ugh, i wanted the play to just END.

i still haven't posted pictures of me and my new glasses.
someone remind me, please?

this saturday i'm going to wrok for my mom,
making ten bucks an hour, friggin sweet
but i'm missing out on a girly prom dress adventure
le sigh
oh well, krista said she would come with me
to toronto with my mom
russell too, it would be good to have his input
whooo...
everyones talking about formal/prom. i'm just, so excited.

aaaaaand i've decided to stop slacking and actually do some effing work in class.
i skipped third to do homework,
i know, kind of ironic, but whatever.

my nose bled yesterday.. did i already say that?
hopefully im almost done being sick.

russell surprised me today and bought me "waking life" on dvd.
SWEET DEAL!

i had free pizza, ate a bit too much and was wound up.
so much for my effing diet.
tommorrow: START EFFING DIET AGAIN.
anyone wanna join me?
it's the prom diet/excuse to lose weight diet!

i need new music.

hellobirmingham @ 2005-04-03T21:13:00

2005-04-04T01:24:20Z

so today was my birthday dinner;
earlier today russell and mitch and sean and krista and i went to see sin city,
it was superfantastically good.

so, when russ and i got to my house at 4:20, everyone was there.
it was good.
my family was there, i mean.
we had souvlaki with tzatziki sause for appetizers, mmm;
then i opened my cards,
there were no presents, only cards,
with money in them.
HOLYFUCKINGSHITFUCK!
my family went all out like they have never done before.
it was insane.
let's just say, i cried,
and prom is going to be an effing breeze.

we played disney scene it because i love that game,
we did the lonsberries stick everyone else,
the lonsberries one. dammit.

the food!!
alfredo with asparagus and chicken=uh,mazing
mixed greens salad with raspberries and raspberry vinaigrette=uh,mazing
turtles cheesecake=uh,mazing.

after dinner russ and i watched a dead like me episode,
then everyone started leaving.
it was a good night.
i hugged everyone, even my dad.

my mom came into my room and got all sappy,
she was a bit tipsy,
about me being eighteen and older,
and how she's always wanted a daughter who had grown up and she could actually talk to her,
and i like your room,
and wow, you look so pretty in these pictures,
i have no recent pictures of you,
can you print out all of these for me? you take a good picture.
i love you, i'm going to cry, i love you.
it was cute, and really unusual.

OMGPROMEEEEEEP!
KRISTAWEHAVETOGODRESSHOPPING!

ps: the other night russell gave me a surprise party lol,
everyone was there,
it was so awesome,
i got cute gifts from everyone,
a weeping yogi from nick,
lots of candy from jess and carl,
porno and weed from sabrina, neither of which i took,
but i promised her i'd get stoned with her later, lol.
the porn was just a gag, it was funny. we watched some of it then turned it off because it was terrible.
krista got me a memory card for ym camera which was desparately needed,
and a chocolate heart on a stick, lol

we hung out, and stuff was good.
thankyoueveryone for doing this for me.
i really appreciated it.
and thank you russell, darling dear of mine.
<3

life is good.

hellobirmingham @ 2005-04-03T20:36:00

2005-04-04T01:07:29Z

1) First Grade Teacher: Mr. Bresee, Mrs. Mason, and a couple more. (I moved around a lot)
2) Last word you said: "Actually"
3) Last song you sang: I hummed along to "Arms of the Angels - Sarah MacLaughlan"
4) Last person you hugged: My Grandma Lola.
5) Last thing you laughed at: My mom, when she got all sappy about me being eighteen.
6) Last time you said 'I love you': Not too long ago, to Russell and my grandparents when they left.
7) Last time you cried: I can't remember.
8) What's in your CD player: Nothing. My new Ani cds were in it yesterday, though.
9) What colour socks are you wearing: Black.
10) What's under your bed: Dust bunnies and a couple socks.
11) What time did you wake up this morning: 8:10, which was actually 9:10, but felt like 5:10.
12) Current taste: Whatever's leftover from the cheesecake I ate.
13) Current hair: Natural, in a ponytail. Bangs tucked behind ears.
14) Current clothes: Baby blue corduroys, green shirt, socks, grey jacket.
15) Current annoyance: My itchy nose, and my parent's music upstairs.
16) Current longing: For no homework. And to go formal dress shopping.
17) Current desktop picture: A Bjork collage.
18) Current worry: I'm going to not get good grades.
19) Current hate: Not getting good grades but being too lazy to do anything about it.
20) Story behind your LJ username: It's an Ani DiFranco song title. Sounded and looked cool.
21) Current favourite article of clothing: Jeez.. I don't know. My pink and black bra?
22) Favourite physical feature of the opposite sex: Eyes.
22a) Favourite physical feature of the same sex: Hair?
22b) Odd fetish: Don't really have one.
23) Last CD that you bought: Shit. Can't remember.
24) Favourite place to be: In Russell's arms, anywhere.
26) Time you wake up in the morning: Approximately 6:45.
27) If you could play an instrument, what would it be: Acoustic guitar.
28) Favourite color: I like yellow. And red, and pink and orange.
29) Do you believe in an afterlife: Sort of.
30) How tall are you: 5'8"
31) Current favourite word/saying: "Suck on THAT."
32) Favourite book: Jesus. Um. Right now: Alias Grace - M. Atwood
37) What is your career going to be like: Adventurous and wonderful? Knock wood.
40) Type a line you remember from any book: "You are one of us."
41) A random lyric: "Pale purple nipples, goosepimples, she skips a step and walks into a trot."
42) Identify some things surrounding your computer: A scanner, scraps of paper, burnable Cds, headphones.. usual stuff.

WHAT:
1. is your name: Shannondoah
2. is your nickname: Shannabanana
4. is your favorite thing to do: Kiss, and laugh until I cry.
5. is your room like: Chock full of sentimentality. Dried flowers hanging on the walls, a white veila round my bed, a collage of drawings taken out of magazines on the wall, my dressers, my bed, my collection of rabbits from past easters, lots of books, lots of pictures, my tv and satellite thingy, photogrpahs on the walls, posters of muddy waters and madonna, a huge collage of everything on the back of my door, a pretty blue bowl full of my necklaces... makeup, etc.
6. is your favorite drink: I love... orange juice.
7. is your car: Voltswagon Golf. My parents drive a minivan.
8. is your job: non-existant.

HAVE YOU:
1. Fallen for your best friend? Yes.
2. Been rejected?: No.
Where'd this one go?
4. Been in love?: Yes, currently am.
5. Used someone?: No.
6. Been used?: No.
8. Done something you regret?: Often.

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
10. You talked to?: My sister.
12. You instant messaged?: Mitch.
13. You yelled at?: Can't remember. Probably my mom, but not in a bad way. I CALLED for her.
14. You laughed with?: Russell.
15. Who broke your heart?: No-one. Knock wood.

DO YOU...
19. Color your hair?: Yes.
20. Have tattoos?: No.
21. Have piercings?: Eyebrow, nose, industrial. But I'm taking out the eyebrow. It's been growing over for a while now.
22. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Yes.
23. Own a webcam? Somewhere.
24. Own a thong? Yes.
27. Habla espanol? No.

HAVE YOU/DO YOU/ARE YOU...
29. Stolen anything? yes.
30. Smoke? I have, but don't.
WTF... Where did 10 questions go???

Etc.
41. If you could be anywhere, where would you be? Cuddling with Russell on his bed.
42. Can you do anything freakish with your body? With my elbows and fingers.
43. What facial feature do you find the most attractive on others? I like the eyes.
45. Would you marry for money?: No.
47. Do you pluck your eyebrows? Yes.
48. Do you like hairy backs? Uh, no.
51. Do you use ICQ, AOL Buddy list etc: MSN.
52. If so, how many people are on your list(s)?: No idea.
53. If you could live in any past, where would it be: I have no idea. Wherever I'd be, if I had to be a woman, I would want to be rich.
54. Do you wear white socks?: Yes...?
55. Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: Take 'em off.
56. Your favorite fruit?: Don't really have one.
57. Do you eat whole wheat bread or white?: Every kind of bread.
58. What is your favorite place to visit?: Hmm... my grandma's house. And the East coast.
59. What is the last movie you saw?: Sin City.
61. Are you photogenic?: Only when I take the pictures.
62. Do you dream in color or black and white?: Colour.
63. Are you wearing fingernail polish? nope.
64. Is it chipped or fresh?: ...
65. Do you have any dimples? Yes.
66. Do you remember being born? That is humanly impossible.
67. Why do you take surveys?: Because I SHOULD be doing homework.
68. Do you drink alcohol? Yes.
69. Did you like or do you dislike high school?: Like. A lot, actually.
70. What is the best accent? Irish!
71. Who do you want to kiss? My boyfriend?
72. Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most?: Both. But leaning towards sunsets.
73. Do you want to live to be 100?: No.
74. Is a flat stomach important to you?: Not really.. I'd like one, though.
75. Do you or have you played with a ouija boad? Yes.
77. Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs?: No. and Yes. Mostly No.
78. At home, do you like the lights on or off?: On.
79. Do you like your nose?: No.
WTF? Questions keep disappearing.
81. At what age did you find out that Santa Clause wasn't real?: about 12.
84. Do you write poetry?: Yes.
85. Snore?: No.
86. Do you sleep more on your back or front? No idea.
87. Cats/Dogs?: CATS!
88. Do you lick stamps?: Yes?
89. Do you use an electric can opener?: No.
90. Have you ridden in a hotair balloon?: No.
91. Do you talk to yourself?: Sometimes.

HOW OLD WERE YOU WHEN...
93. Smoked your first cigarette?: No idea.
94. Got drunk for the first time?: Grade nine.
95. Smoked pot for the first time?: Grade nine.
96. Kissed someone? Four? lol. My real first kiss was in grade nine though.
97. Made out with someone?: Grade nine. HOLY SHIT.
98. Lost your virginity?: 17.
99. Had good sex?: 17.
100. You realised how lame you are and haven't even had your first kiss: Uh..that never happened.

hellobirmingham @ 2005-04-01T17:28:00

2005-04-01T22:35:27Z

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY, BITCHES!

i'm sad about leaving seventeen.
it was the best year of my life.
i wrote my memory box a goodbye note, and have to start a new one.
sigh.

at school, my locker was decorated.
thanks, my love.
natasha gave me some loooooovely incense, and some BUBBLES!
[we blew bubbles at lunch, it was so fun.]
russell gave me prom shoes in the form of money,
and a double-disc ani difranco cd: "reckoning/revelling".
krista forgot hers at home. lol, oh krista.
ashley is painting me something,
but because it's not ready yet,
she wrote me a song and sang it to me in class.
it was really funny and to the tune of "i want candy".
thanks, all my dearest, dearest friends of mine.
<3

there were like 3 other people whose birthday was today at my school.

the caf ladies gave me a birthday cookie, they would have given me more free food but their new boss is a nazi.

my birthday was on the wolf's birthday bliz! deargod! thanks mom.

ummm, so when i got home from school, i lit some incense and candles and put on my new cd,
and it was actually pretty nice, although a wee bit lonely.
and now i'm just bumming around,
humming to myself,
and loving everyone.

ps: eeep! prom!

but

hellobirmingham @ 2005-03-31T15:50:00

2005-03-31T20:50:40Z

SO... WHO'S BUYING ME HAIR BLEACH?

EXTRA! EXTRA!

2005-03-31T20:28:10Z

TOMMORROW IS MY BIRTHDAY

I GOT GLASSES, PICTURES LATER

SATURDAY I'M DOING THE 24 HOUR PROJECT, COME!

THE HUSBAND AND I GOT PROFESSIONAL PHOTOS DONE

HIS MOM KICKED THE PHOTOGRAPHER'S ASS

TOMMORROW IS MY BIRTHDAY

I'M DYING MY HAIR BLONDE

fin.

hellobirmingham @ 2005-03-29T17:36:00

2005-03-29T22:40:35Z

Lauren, Shama and I.
It was obviously Shama that did it.

Sexy people in the toilet.
Oh baby. Oh baby.

Uh-oh.
It was obviously me who did it. Look at that face. Hah.

In other news,
IGOTNEWSHOES!
They're all black with black and white laces.
I'll post pictures later.
Whhoooo.
Tonight I'm getting FOH TOH GRAFFED, sucka.

FLASH!

hellobirmingham @ 2005-03-28T16:34:00

2005-03-28T21:41:13Z

I need a change.
I seriously do.
I need new friends, because it suddenly occured to me that I really don't have many.
Maybe I'm too picky,
But lately there have been a lot of people
who I'm going to stop pretending I like
because I know that they wouldn't cross the road to piss on me if my head was on fire.
Metaphorically speaking.
I'm sick of these shallow friendships,
and I'm sick of being nice to people who I don't like
and who don't like me.
Or who like me, but not as much as I like them.
From now on,
I'm going to be honest with myself and make no exceptions.
I think I may be too picky in my friends,
But, to tell the truth, a lot of my "friends"
aren't friends at all. they're aquiantances.
It's a sad thought really.

Everything feels amiss.

A backwards entry.

2005-03-28T20:35:13Z

Last night Krista, Kayt, Stef, Russell and I went to Jen's house for movie night.
It was fun, I really enjoyed it. Jen has such a beautiful house.
Smells pretty.
UNLIKE SOMEONE'S VAN!!!
We watched Finding Neverland and Taxi. Finding Neverland as sooo wonderful. Taxi? Not as much. But I didn't hate watching it.

Before that I had my family's Easter dinner.
The Lonsberry side.
We had asparagus. My favourite.
My grandma gave me "Philosophy: 100 Essential Thinkers" for Easter. I love it already.

A while ago was Nick's party.
It wasn't as good as the last one.
He forgot to invite people, he told me.
HOW CAN YOU FORGET TO INVITE PEOPLE TO A PARTY?
Anyways.

Before that, Russell and I hung out with his cousins Kyle and Matt.
Superawesome guys.
I dyed Matt's hair fuschia!
It's so purrrdy.

Before THAT, a bunch of people were hanging out at Russell's, and Krista and I did Matt's hair all purdy-like.
We played with little Grace, she's so cute.
She brushed Kyle's hair, with my encouragement. Heh, heh.

Ah, this entry totally went backwards.
Those are very short summaries.
Ah, well.
Russell works 'til 6:30 tonight, which makes me sad.
School is tommorrow, which makes me sadder.

MY BIRTHDAY IS IN THREE DAYS AND THAT MAKES ME REALLY HAPPY!

PICTURES!!!!!!!!!!1!!11!

2005-03-26T21:23:48Z

wtf@the mattress int he background?

hellobirmingham @ 2005-03-26T08:04:00

2005-03-26T16:04:28Z

You scored as agnosticism. You are an agnostic. Though it is generally taken that agnostics neither believe nor disbelieve in God, it is possible to be a theist or atheist in addition to an agnostic. Agnostics don't believe it is possible to prove the existence of God (nor lack thereof).

Agnosticism is a philosophy that God's existence cannot be proven. Some say it is possible to be agnostic and follow a religion; however, one cannot be a devout believer if he or she does not truly believe.

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agnosticism

92%

atheism

83%

Paganism

83%

Islam

71%

Buddhism

54%

Hinduism

54%

Judaism

42%

Satanism

25%

Christianity

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Suggestions?

2005-03-24T21:14:17Z

Should I dye my hair
(the red, obviously)

Or should I dye it the black and blonde that's in an earlier post?

What do you think would look good on me? Any new suggestions are welcome.

I NEED A CHANGE!!

hellobirmingham @ 2005-03-23T16:30:00

2005-03-23T21:31:52Z

All I can think of to say:

My birthday is in eight days!

I'm using birthday money for formal.
Sigh.